I can relate, some days are harder than others. I Just have to keep telling myself this cannot be forever, its hard to not think that the lies are gonna be believed but try and stay positive. Remember you are strong, even stronger when it comes to your kid. They are worth all the hard times, just to see them happy and safe. good luck, keep going. This is just the now, now is not forever… i know that’s hard to remember at times, but take a deep breathe, cry if you need to then brush yourself down and carry on. now is not forever.