MamaMia

[MamaMia]

Hello strong women !

I had weak moment and I feel stronger again , I am not gonna go back to the hell I was living in , he cane to my house pick up kids and locked us in the room and he was trying to make me do things with him but I was fighting and it didn’t happen , he says he loves me and he cannot live without me and I just realise then I’m he didn’t change 😔 he has been calling me names again .
So now I go back to no contact , he is trying to use kids and asking them who I meet and that he is telling my kids he hates every man that comes around near me .

I hope you all good guys .

It’s lien I left but I’m still in it ? Will this ever end ?

[MamaMia]

Hi girls .
I hope you are all good and safe 💕

I’m struggling .
Like really struggling .
People who know my story they know I manage to leave the relationship and I’m still living alone with my kids .

I don’t know what to do .
I feel confused and lost .
He wants to get back with me .
He is saying he is gonna go for treatment he understood his mistake .
My kids saying they want us back 😞 what do I do ?
I don’t want to let him back in again and then regret that he never changed .

My family gone far from me , I feel alone and lost .

I met someone , such a lovely caring person who could do everything for me but I’m pushing away him all the time as I still feel like I belong to my ex .

What should I do 🙁

XX

[MamaMia]

Hello Confused123 .
Thank you for your reply , if nice to hear from you after a while .
I hope you are ok .

I cut the contact with him .
He sees my kids only by someone my neighbour etc. It’s much better , he was trying to play the game that he wants me back , then he was saying my kids that he loves me but I don’t love him and all this .

It’s really hard especially that my youngest one doesn’t understand and she thinks qe and him we will go holiday together etc.

I know it needs time and also she is still little.

I need to take part in this freedom programme as things from the past won’t let go , they all stays in my head .
I have nightmares still.

He found himself a new girlfriend and I don’t know why it hurt when I used to hate him for what he done . How can I let go ? Is there any way to do that ? Or just need time and everything will heal .

I feel really depressed but I’m not showing my kids , I know I can do it , I know we can do it .
This forum and people here helped me so much .

Thank you strong women 💕

[MamaMia]

Hello Borntobefree.

Thank you for your reply . I will try my best to support my son I know it takes time but I hope he will eventually understand .
I will do everything to keep my kids safe .

Thank you for your support

[MamaMia]

Hello Anabela .

Thank you very much for your reply .
It really means a lot to me and support from people like you always help me .

I am thinking about going no contact .
When I don’t see him everything is fine , but when he just message me even then when everything goes wrong again .

I know it takes time . It’s so hard but I believe it’s gonna be better , I believe that one day I will wake up happy .

I just need to keep my kids safe and it’s all that matters .

My son when will grow up will eventually understand.

I just pray and hope .

I’m not going back to him, if took me (detail removed by Moderator) years to get out .

Thank you for your support . This forum always keeps me alive .

People here are amazing .

I hope everything will be ok for you too .

I will just keep fighting 😘

[MamaMia]

Thank You Eve for your reply .

It’s still so hard I don’t know how to mentally get out from it .

My son said today why this all happened and of me and him gonna go back together , and he cried 😔 it’s horrible to see .
Is it all my fault ?
I don’t want to go back to what it was like :/(
Should I go back just becase my son is upset ? How can I change things .
I don’t knwk what to do ?
I’m sorry again 😔

[MamaMia]

endoftherainbow thank you for your reply . That is good idea , I’m gonna make that list tomorrow . Thank you very much for that . You have me that light again thank you.

My parents leaving with me now but they moving out soon and I’m gonna leave on my own .
I might figure something out but at the moment I honk I cannot avoid seeing him .

He is hugging me when he comes even if I sing want and staff like that , saying he loves me and this is even more painful . I will try to avoid situations like that z
Thank you for you reply xxxxx

[MamaMia]

Hello.

It’s been almost (detail removed by Moderator) months since he moved out. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I had moments that I thought maybe I should get back with him ? Is that normal ? Even knowing it took me a long time to get out from this bad place …
Whenever I speak with him when he is coming to see kids he makes me cry , he said he never abused me and I never should left him , and he made me feel so bad all the time . I’m Realky depressed , I don’t talk with anyone about this , maybe that’s why it’s so hard .
I’m sorry for being sad again . 😞

[MamaMia]

Thank you for your reply KIP.

I’m deep inside me I think I know it’s nothknh I could save this and make things better , but I just hope that with he matter of time I will feel more stronger and my guild will dissapear .
I think that was the hardest decision and move I had to made in my life especially that my family and his didn’t know about that so it makes things even worse .

I always make sure my mom is with us and he behaves like that anyway .

Thank you for your support .

Xxz

[MamaMia]

Hi girls .

I haven’t posted for a while .
My mind was everywhere .
I still fight with my thoughts , I’m not with him anymore , he visit kids once a week . When he comes he’s still saying it’s all my fault and I feel really guilty for family breaks up still 😔

I hope you are ok girls xx

[MamaMia]

Hello .
I didn’t post fo a while as I had so much to do with sorting out staff when he left . I didn’t expect it’s gonna be so much of it.so I’m sorry that I didn’t post anything .

He seen kids but long time ago . He said to me that I don’t care about kids and what they feel and that I’m sh** mother and it’s all my fault the divorce and everything.

I know I shouldn’t believe what he says but I it’s just bit nice to hear at all .

He said he wants me to feel the pain he does feel.

And day after he is texting me like nothing happen .
I don’t want to even speak with him but I know I have to until we sort all things out with divorce seeing kids etc…

I really wish to sign for freedom course I think I need it .

Thank you xxx

[MamaMia]

Thank you all for all messages .
They are helping me a lot.

I had a break down when he left and I feel confused and sometimes mixed feeling even I know I don’t want him to come back ever just the fact of breaking up the family makes me feel guilty , but I know it’s for good for kids safety .

I think I must do what you all told me I must change the locks and staff.
As I let him come and see kids at my house and he was calling me names , and he even said to my son that he is gonna have new dad that was horrible how he can do that to my kid it’s not his fault ;( so I decided. It let him inside any more .
Also no one still knows what has been happening between me and him his family hates me and they saying I’m the one who destroys family because they don’t know what I’ve been through.

I know I need time .
I know I just need to be strong .
But o won’t ever give up and I will never let him to come back , I won’t go back to living in hell .

On a good path …

Thank you ladies ❤️

[MamaMia]

Hello girls.
Thank you so much for your reply.
I just made sure last night that I’m doing the right thing when he tried to b abusive again… I also never thought it’s giung to be the hardest thing to do when he leave, I mean why it hurts so much ? I hope I will get together soon.
He left today .
Just now.

I just need time to get myself together I think …

I will post more tomorrow I just don’t feel like talking .

Thank you very much for your support .

[MamaMia]

Hello .
I just need to do a quick update .
He is moving out on (detail removed by Moderator) …
I’m gonna live in my own with kids now .
He taped me twice (detail removed by Moderator) weeks ago and that pushed me to the point when I told some people and I told him I’m gonna report to police . So he said he will move out .

I just want to thank those who where supporting me rspecially Congused 123 thank you so much .

How this freedom program works where I can find it ?

Thanks you

No lost anymore .
On a way out … x

[MamaMia]

Hi guys .

I’m on a good way .
It’s tough as never been before but I told my parents , I’m looking for accommodation and I’m leaving soon.
I prefer that way that wait for another bad day when he loses his temper and put him in jail, also he is trying to say sorry and that he will change but we all know he won’t .
I feel horrible that I’m breaking up the family but I have no choice I need to kee my children safe .
Thank you all for your support . Xxx

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