I felt an intense pull to my ex when I first left and even kept seeing him (telling myself I was wrong and he is the father of my children).
Then one day I looked at him and I just didn’t love him anymore and I realised I loved myself and my children more.
From then he just makes my stomach churn. It takes a lot emotionally not to fall back into it but I promise you it is never worth it.
Years later my kids still suffer the effects of trauma and I have the guilt of not protecting them from him for so long, despite the fact he never hurt them physically, it impacted them.
