Thank you for replying everyone. I’m in such a state of shock. I never thought he would do something like that because I was in a psychologically and physically abusive marriage before and this other guy was horrible almost right away and when sober and this is a different pattern of abuse and it’s confusing me. I feel so alone I don’t have close female friends and I can’t talk to my mum about it because it will distress her to much after what happened to me before. My boyfriend is my best friend but we haven’t really spoken since what happened and he has sent me long messages about how he is going to sort out his issues and has spoken to various people about it to hold him to account but I’m exhausted after what I’ve been through before. I don’t trust him but I miss our friendship. I keep having flashbacks of him choking me and I feel numb and apathetic. I’m tired of men mistreating me. I honestly just give up! X
