Thank you for your reply Kip. I am searching for counselling near me and I have ordered those books along with the workbook for living with the dominator. I really hope this helps. I got little sleep lastnight but I have deleted his number and will be trying to turn to my journal when I feel the urge. The more I listed my abuse the more ridiculous my feelings felt but it was so good to get it all out and look at what he has done and be reminded of why I am on the right path and should refrain from contact. You are right even after moving on that vulnerability will be there. I wrote all the pros and cons, the amount of cons. I felt slightly happy at what I will no longer encounter on a daily basis. The sadness is there but a weird happiness also. I need to remain strong maybe this is what empowerment feels like. Thank you for your suggestions, it’s so appreciated x.
