Hi white rose, the self harm was in the past and so was the drinking, the thoughts are still with me though, i thought about AA in the past but managed to snap myself out of it, in my job role i often see people who have mental health problems, and i think its triggered me, it seems to become more and more everyday, i have no self confidence, my now husband who ive been with for (Detail removed by Moderator)yrs has never seen me undressed, because im ashamed he’ll judge me. Im currently getting no help or support from anyone except you lovely ladies. I know theres women out there going through worse than me x