Speranza

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He’s gone. He went to his sister’s. I feel so sad I just want to cry. I feel so alone now but it had to be done. My mum hasn’t even called to ask how I am – just 2 texts in 3 weeks. I have a feeling I’m totally alone again. But it beats being had a go at all the time. Sorry, just got loads going on in my head and heart.

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Still no sign of finding somewhere. I tell him he needs to leave today. He gets annoyed and tells me he wants nothing more to do with me and he will file for divorce and I cannot keep his name.

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I’m still confused. (Btw he should be moving out (detail removed by moderator)). I was sent the book about living with a dominator from The Freedom Programme. I know my husband does very little of what is written. Only snippets are of him. For example, the demand for sex, used to be so bad – up to 4/5 times a day, but in the end only if I agreed. I am also in a “King of the Castle” environment where he is cold when my children are around and I get the cold shoulder when I go out, as though the only fun thing in his life is me.

Any way, I’m still being strong with the split. He has had since (detail removed by moderator) to look for somewhere as he said he wouldn’t keep our flat, and hes viewed not one apartment. He is sleeping on the sofa and now on the floor. (detail removed by moderator). If that were me I’d have been more proactive in looking and whilst waiting would blow up the airbed (detail removed by moderator) and use a hot water bottle.

Its sp hard. I feel bad.

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