hi thanks for the reply, for a while I didn’t want anyone to know and wanted it to be a secret as I was still in fear of him finding out I had spoken about it to others. I also felt guilty of telling people as I made excuses in my head too that he didn’t mean to do it and needs help etc, but once I told someone about it they explained that i shouldn’t feel guilty telling others as none of it was my fault. I felt the same as you i just wanted someone to come and rescue me but obviously know one had any idea what was going on. I also told a friend who I am not as close with but I just knew that they would listen and actual help me out of this situation and i’m very grateful for their help. Once i became more confident telling others I did come across some people feeling guilty and not really knowing how to help, but obviously it’s a hard situation for someone to help with who hasn’t experienced something like this.
hope all is well with you now and thank you again for your reply
