Fear of not to be strong enough to deal with all the emotions I get after.. fear of being alone completly.. fear of loss.. fear of a loser.. fear of a taking the mask off for family and friends.. fear of not be able to trust at all. Fear of the guilt of even thinking about someone else.. or even love somebody else.. I feel like, if I love someone else, back of my mind tell me u shouldnt. How can you think about someone else.. u should think about him only and only. He needs you. How can you leave him.. he is innocent. Sometimes I think, if he leave me.. or if he goes with someone else.. will be easier for me.. in that way.. I am so hurt but I feel less guilty.
