I can’t thank you enough for your comments and advice. I have been in contact with so many people but to be honest it has all been for my daughter. I have kind of been running on adrenalin and mummy mode. I hadn’t even thought about me really! Everyone keeps telling me how well I’ve done and how brave I am. I don’t feel it! All I feel is stupid for allowing it all to happen, bad for putting my little girl through it all and focused on taking back control and making her happy! I feel like I am drowning in courts, paperwork and endless phone calls… Please tell me it gets better? I know it is stupid but I keep feeling bad for him too. Asking myself if it’s okay to not allow him to speak to our daughter, am I hurting him? Even after the judge told put in place extreme measures and my solicitor was shocked at the speed, I still doubt I’m doing the right thing! How long till I can trust myself to make decisions again?? Sorry. I know these are silly questions but I can feel myself falling apart and I can’t allow that. I have to be strong for my beautiful little girl who is going through so much mentally. I am so grateful for this safe place to say how I feel without fear. Thank you x
