My job is a temp job and they seem to be getting rid of people all the time. I’ve been there quite a few months and everyone seems to like me but you can never tell. My previous temp jobs never lasted and then I was unemployment for ages trying to find something. I was waiting for my job to go permanent before making a move but it just doesn’t seem to be happening. I need somewhere very close to work because I have an anxiety disorder that makes getting on buses or in taxis very difficult so I’d have to be walking distance from work and I didn’t think refuge would be so close. I didn’t think of finding a private landlord that accepts DSS so that’s an option and I’ve worked out what benefits I could claim before and I think I could survive on that if the flat was the right price. I feel like I’d just like to give it a go and see what happens. Sometimes when things are calm I try and forget the abuse and act like nothing happened because I’m scared to me on my own. My mom died a few years ago from cancer and my dad’s words were “your mom’s not around to protect you anymore and if you were homeless you can’t stay here but if you did you’d have to give me all your money” and he means all of it. Every penny of benefits. I told him my partner hit me and he just took my partners side and said I must have deserved it so I told him I was raped and he barely batted an eyelid. Then he said I couldn’t stay there because I don’t pay my way even though I could because I work full time. My anxiety disorder means if I lost my job I’d find it hard to get another job and commute although not impossible as I may be able to do short local journeys.
