Sweetielover

[Sweetielover]

The merry go round I feel just makes it worse, it’s almost as if your drawn in to believe that everything will be ok but that only lasts for a short period of time and then it’s back to usual. Yeah that true it’s almost as if they get a thrill outve the power and causing fear. I nearly feel I have to hide things from him for fear of causing more bad things between us which only scares me further. That’s my problem too I always let things slide but he’ll hold on to the tiniest thing and never let it go. In a sense I’m so glad there is people out here who understand even though it’s in horrible conditions xx

[Sweetielover]

It’s so hard it’s like deep down I know I’m not to blame but I find it hard to believe that as that’s just how he’s left me feeling. As if everything is my fault. I’m trying to hold on to myself and think positive but it’s just so hard and I’m really struggling. It’s so hard to not want to push friends away as they feel they can’t do anymore to help so I’m glad there is people here who can understand xx

[Sweetielover]

Thank you for taking time out to respond. Reading everyone’s different experiences has helped in the sense where I know I’m not alone and there’s others out there experiencing what I am and I suppose in a weird way it brings a sense of comfort knowing im not suffering alone. I’m trying to find the strength to walk away but I’m just really struggling because as a lot of my family and friends don’t realise it isn’t just as easy as that. I haven’t spoke to anyone for help yet I’m just trying to ease myself in as it’s a bit hard to accept it’s happening to a degree. It’s sad that I can’t change it or make it better xx

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