Hi All. I’ve just logged on after 3 months of posting my original comment and boy how things have changed.
I realised how bad I was and how things had got and after a visit to my Dr it sunk in how near to crisis point I was. After facing up to my husband and asking him to leave several times (and him refusing), I decided I would go.
I’m now in a new home with my youngest son and looking forward to next year. It’s been far from easy mentally though, I was teetering on a breakdown, have had my anti depressants doubled and been referred to mental health services. I’ve been in automatic mode, doing practical things,taking my name off financial accounts etc but not looking after my mental state. Luckily for me I work within an area of mental wellbeing and the support from my friends & collegues has been brilliant, with many of them not knowing what ive gone through all these years.
Going into the new year my mental health has improved, I’m on the road to a better life, I keep in touch with my older children and things are improving all the time. I still have things to sort out and I’m planning on a divorce next year. I consider myself very lucky as I know there are others who have or are suffering worse than me but let me tell you there is hope. I made the break, it’s a bumpy road but if I can do it so can others.
Xxx
