Tkkbub

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I appreciate how ridiculous this may sound, but I worry about not giving my daughter consistency. I separated from her dad when she was around (detail removed by moderator), met my husband when she was (detail removed by moderator), married when she was (detail removed by moderator). She has changed schools, moved house, her dad has met a new partner etc. She has had so many changes in her little life.

It really does sound ridiculous now I have written it down

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I worry a lot about the effect on my daughter, and I find myself hoping she doesn’t set him off. She didn’t want to eat her tea (detail removed by moderator), and in all honesty I had given her a lot. I was about to tell her it doesn’t matter when my husband told her to eat it. He finished his, and left the room because sitting and waiting for my daughter to finish annoys him. I picked pieces of food off her plate and quietly put them on the floor for the dog, whilst holding my finger to my lips in a ‘shush’ gesture. She mouthed a silent ‘thank you’. I don’t want my daughter to think I am weak.

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I have taken anti depressants on and off for years, long before I met my husband. Because I have always struggled with my mental health, it’s really hard for me to trust my feelings. Yes, I am scared, but I don’t know if I have a valid reason to be. For example, someone might have a silly, irrational fear of sticking their foot out of the bed. The fear is still the same, but is it justified? I don’t know if I am right to feel nervous or panic around him. Does that make sense?

I worry a lot about the effect on my daughter, and I find myself hoping she doesn’t set him off. She didn’t want to eat her tea (detail removed by moderator), and in all honesty I had given her a lot. I was about to tell her it doesn’t matter when my husband told her to eat it. He finished his, and left the room because sitting and waiting for my daughter to finish annoys him. I picked pieces of food off her plate and quietly put them on the floor for the dog, whilst holding my finger to my lips in a ‘shush’ gesture. She mouthed a silent ‘thank you’. I don’t want my daughter to think I am weak.

My husband has already, jokingly, told me he will kill me if I leave him, as well as any man I might leave him for. He said it as a joke, but I worry there is truth in it.

We have just bought a house together. It’s a run down, old listed building. It is a wreck. Husband is (detail removed by moderator) so we are intending on renovating it. It is my dream home. If I leave, I will lose it, I will lose everything. I have (detail removed by moderator) dogs- I can’t leave my dogs with him. He knows I adore my dogs.

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