You will manage to burry all those negative thoughts and go on with your life it only takes time… although I will never fully go away.. i was lucky to not have a baby with my ex although my abuse Was daily i ran to get a pill lying That I will use the loo in the (detail removed by moderator) … he was outside the toilet but luckily i went straight in before he got there now you have your baby and he needs you more than anything I wish I will have one as well one day although I’m struggling for the past year.. but I have a dog i care for atm it gives me sometimes to do and I feel needed ❤️ Hopefully you will overcome not just burry it 🙏🥺