Thanks lover of no contact for your kind words and welcome. I still seem to switch between understanding that the way he treated me was not okay and that perhaps I was too anxious and intense and that was too much for him to handle. I can’t seem to shake the feeling of guilt and the feeling that I am being a bit dramatic – he sees absolutely no issue with how he has behaved and made me feel like I’m crazy for not liking that he would go out for nights and days at a time and not know where he was etc. I was just so worried that one time I would need him as I was unwell during pregnancy and his phone would be switched off as he usually did when he left.
