BabyBird

[BabyBird]

Hi all, firstly I would like to thank you all so much for your replies. You guys are the reason I am now FREE !
He has moved out and I have completely ignored him. Acted like he doesn’t exist.

I feel like I am human again, I can’t even begin to explain how free I feel. I look in the mirror and I see how strong and beautiful I am. I have escaped and my only regret is that I didn’t do it sooner.

I have joined a gym, got a personal trainer and dyed my hair blonde. I cannot believe how much support I have had, how many colleagues, friends and family have supported me.

I feel like I can breathe again and I am NOT scared. It feels so amazing to not be scared anymore.

Thank you all, you saved my life.

[BabyBird]

So sorry this is such a long post, just had a lot to get off my chest.

[BabyBird]

Hi Allornothing

I know it has to be over but even now he is saying that everything is my fault and that I can’t keep playing the abuse card when he hasn’t laid his hands on me in (detail removed by Moderator) months.
Even now I still feel like I am trying to earn his approval and get him to care about me. He’s telling me how much he hates me and how it’s my personality and that he can’t stand me.
I forgave him so many times and in the end it’s him who hates me.
I feel so heartbroken and because I lost all my friends and most of my family I am all alone. I wish there was support groups for things like this where I could meet other people who feel like this and not be so alone 🙁

[BabyBird]

He is moving out (detail removed by Moderator), I wish I had been enough for him to change. I am so beyond lonely, this hurts more than the abuse which I know is so wrong.

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