Barnetfly

[Barnetfly]

Also thank you for the advice. I used to keep a diary but he found out because he thought I was cheating (the diary is on my phone) he made me talk to him about my issues. Then when I used it he said oh what are you doing telling your diary how bad of a boyfriend I am. And then he continously mimicked and mocked me and made me feel bad. I have to go in another room when I use this forum. He works from home and he never goes out so I can’t go anywhere I have to stay put and find a way for everything. I am also scared about packing my bags because I don’t have many clothes and it’s a small home so he will know my bag is packed and he will know that clothes are missing. I know he would try to stop me to leave or it might trigger him

[Barnetfly]

I am becoming more concerned and worried about him. For the past few days he has been feeling like he is going to lose me and that I am going to leave. This makes me feel incredibly sad and upset. I have thought about leaving but he doesn’t know that. I feel so guilty and bad I feel that now I definitely can’t leave even though maybe I should. He is really struggling and he keeps crying. I’m not sure what to do

[Barnetfly]

Does this make me an abuser? He also be sad and upset with me and go and be happy when he is doing his hobby. I just don’t feel good. I feel so guilty for opening up about it and I feel so bad for telling people about it

[Barnetfly]

Thank you for the support chocoholic and hawthorn. It still doesn’t sit right with me. I know I have my own issues so I’m not innocent. I would never accuse him of cheating but I would get really nervous when he talks to females because he doesn’t pay much attention to me. I then think why is she so special etc i try to talk to him about my concerns and worries. I even spoke to a professional about it and they gave me techniques for dealing with it.He says because of that I control him and he can’t do what he wants. I then feel so guilty and bad and then I find it difficult to open up to him. He also told these other females my insecurities and I saw it and I felt so betrayed

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