Hi Gaia, I’m also new. This is my first post, I’ve found reading other messages really helpful, but I’m reaching out to talk because I just don’t feel like I’m coping well and I feel very alone. It made me smile when you said about hiding under duvet – because I’ve been doing just that. I have physically left my aggressive emotionally and verbally abusive husband (of (detail removed by moderator)) (detail removed by moderator) ago, but I can’t get him mentally out of my mind. I don’t sleep well, I’m on high alert all the time and his voice is still in my head. I’m doing all the sensible things – solicitor, support from domestic abuse charity, signing up for counselling, but I feel very alone and scared. I keep searching for answers why he did what he did and why I stayed as long as I did. My fear of him just won’t go away. So I wanted to give you a virtual hug and hope that you’re Ok.
