When he’s nice, calm, affectionate he’s really relaxing to be with.although recently I did feel there was a subtle undercurrent of frustration & angry towards me, and certainly my parents who are definitely opposed to me returning.he said,”I’m not going to tell you what to do” …but clearly holding back all his thoughts
I feel very guilty and hurt for him because he’s not seeing his daughter and me.
So I did start messaging and speaking to him for a couple of days, but after I spoke to a DA helpline I went quiet for (detail removed by Moderator) days, because what they said resonated to an extent. He was understandably annoyed about this, and blames my parents for messing with my mind.
My mind is a mess, and so is my life.
My fear of going back which is a long way away, is that I wouldn’t see my friends or my family. Also that he would punish me with dark moods & psychoanalysis of how I’ve behaved
