Butterbelly

[Butterbelly]

(Detail removed by moderator). I thought I was level headed. Loved a girls night out and had a good job. He was fun and good looking. The sad part is I did not want a relationship I was having too much fun and job was going good. (Detail removed by moderator) later we were married.
All the signs were there.
He had been married, had a daughter, was seeing someone. He was good fun but there was a loving sad side to him. He needed support, a friend. I met his Dad and a couple of friends he had known from school. They were great people.
All the signs were there.
We moved in together. Ikea shop and meals out. His Dad came and stopped over and got on really well with my parents. It is before we got married that I remember him saying “My Dad said I’m going to ruin your life” Me “What” Then both of us laughing.
All the signs were there.
We got married in the late (detail removed by moderator). Within (detail removed by moderator) years I suspected that he was seeing someone. Questioning this led to shouting, slamming doors and me being the worst thing that ever walked on this planet. One argument I remember, his daughter was staying. We were upstairs, she was watching TV downstairs, I was getting ready for work. He was not happy that I had been out with my friends the night before. The smack on my ear broke my earring. (Detail removed by moderator) do not punch or slap were there is an obvious mark. I came downstairs like nothing was wrong, got my stuff and went to start my (detail removed by moderator) shift.
All the signs were there.

He has told me that he was seeing someone before we married, soon after we married, paid for abortions while we were doing IVF and he has paid for prostitutes all the time during both marriages, “It’s a laugh, it’s what men do.”
All the signs were there. But I loved him. The more the lies became apparent, started to fall apart, the more he drank. The violence was no longer an argument that got out of hand. I was dragged out of bed and put in an arm lock on the floor. I didn’t understand why he kept doing this, I was asleep! These were not an argument that had got out of hand.
All the signs were there.
I could go on and on. I am so angry with my self. WHY ?? Because I stayed so long. Because I think I am starting to finally stop running away from me, my needs, my wants, who I am, ME.
Love to all of you, you give me the strength, confidence and the feeling of “I can do this”
Thank you for sharing your experiences and thoughts xxx

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