Your life sounds like a reflection of mine. My breakup has only been a month, but it just seems to be getting worse, to the point he has sent revenge porn to my (removed by moderator). The police were involved, but not just for the revenge part, more so for the coercive behaviour, as this is a massive part that the police can help with. I even went as far as going to the police station to give a statement, but pulled out, as I am petrified of what will happen next.
I have two children, old enough to understand, but not wanting them to hate me for getting their dad arrested. Its killing me inside. Hating myself, for letting it get this far.
The part when they try and emotional abuse you with, “killing” themselves, I’ve learnt not to believe him anymore, as I phoned the police the last time and they proved to me that it was all emotional abuse, and it opened my eyes massively.
I wish I had the answers for you, to get through this, but you are not alone. We will get through this.
My inbox is always open, if you want to talk xx