Dishmosh

[Dishmosh]

I’m so much more lost since posting and I genuinely think I’m trapped. He’s told his friends and family that I’m withholding money from him, and that I’m being hostile and distant basically splitting us up.
I’ve had messages, including some quite abusive ones, from his friends telling me that I need to cut my attitude and open my legs more often and just give him sex to keep him happy, and give him more money so he can get his weed when he wants, I shouldn’t be selfish. That hasn’t happened.
Since I last posted, I opened up, secretly, a basic bank account to put the childrens money in to, as he had access to my other bank accounts through online banking on his phone. He also has access to my credit cards and they’re maxed so I needed to know something was safe.
He’s been sneaking out at night to go to his friends and been coming back really late and hiding it (I don’t know where, I can smell it on him or in the house but can’t find it). I know that his one friends family grows it, so it would be insanely easy for him to just pop round and get some. He has a large social circle of people he could get it off to be honest, and not have to pay for it until a later date.
Its consuming him, if he doesn’t have any he doesn’t just go without, he has to find somebody that day who has some.

He has been off work the past two days looking after the children as I couldn’t have time off. He hasn’t had any all day until the second I got through the door and then he left. So I had been out since 7am, got back at 6pm, had to do them both dinner, bath them, put them to bed, have a shower myself and prep their lunches for tomorrow, he got back at 9.

I can’t leave this home without us both agreeing to terminate the tenancy. My landlord said it’ll take both of our signatures in order to move on but he won’t do it. He’s made me behind with council tax, water, TV licence, my credit cards are maxed, I’ve had hire purchase items for him, phone contracts all in my name because his rating was so awful.. all in all I’m about £10k down because of him and I wish I had the confidence to take a step but I don’t.
I just keep thinking things will get better things will improve.

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