Thanks for your reply, I could possible have others do the handover but im dragging my feet about it cause in all honestly I want to see him, even tho I know I feel so much better when I don’t, I have blocked and removed all social media apps and that has helped, but this final step to no contact I cant seem to do yet.
I still feel like I am holding on to some hope that one day this will all go away and we will be a happy family, but I no in reality it wont, I no it was all a game and I question if the whole relationship was even real or was I just a game. I feel like I am in moarning, like he and myself have actually died, I just cant seem to cope with anything atm, I question everyday ‘how has my life come to this, how has he changed soooo much’ I don’t even recognise him or myself in the slightest!
the things he done in the past, the way he treats me now it so disgusting, I don’t feel like ill ever be happy again or get him out of my heart and head
