Thanks for replying! I have been in touch with My local women’s Aid.
I had been wanting to call them for years. So it was very emotional and such a relief. I am so tempted to tell my brother but once i tell him there will be no going back. He will be supportive I’m sure. Maybe they know already as theres been a few comments about control.
I always wanted one more. I know I should appreciate the 2 I have but i can’t help it!it will be the ending of so many things. Also dreading co parenting it will be such a nightmare.I don’t think I can do it. I feel so at peace when he’s not here. Myself and so relaxed. Even the children are better. There has always been control but this has worsened and became more verbal emotional and physical last year. But also throwing blankets around etc the physical episode really was the end for me so I’ve been grieving since then.
The split will be so hard and if he turns nasty I don’t think I can cope.
He knows I’m only here as I’ve nowhere to go right now, want another child and have no money due to paying for everything except big bills. The children are completely funded by me. I am trapped and conflicted. Maybe I will make a decision soon. I contacted women’s aid for example and that was a big step. Thank you
