Hi Hiabcd,
This is my first time ever coming on this forum and posting. Your post could’ve been written by me. Its shocking how identical your experiences are to mine. I’ve been going through exactly the same things. I only recently came to learn about gaslighting too and I was in shock when I discovered it. I couldn’t believe that I could be a victim of emotional abuse, and that too for many years. I was in denial. Is it really abuse? But over the past few months of reading a lot and pondering over the patterns over the years, I realise now that this is what I have been going through. I still struggle to believe that a strong, intelligent woman like myself could find myself in such a situation. That’s the hardest bit. I question myself why didn’t I leave sooner, I shouldn’t known better, but really this form of abuse was so subtle that I couldn’t have known. Especially as I got married quite young..
