Thank you both for your comments. He has agreed to move out and is looking for somewhere. It does scare me, not on my own but the money side of things. However, I do work and can increase my income by increasing my hours thankfully, it will be worth it to be free. I hope in the future that I can speak with my children and they will understand, but I do need to heal myself before I try to repair my relationship with them.
Yesterday afternoon I meet with a friend and they reminded me that through all of the turmoil I set goals for my career and have achieved what I set out to do even when he tried to get in the way, even telling people I wasn’t any good at what I do!! I didn’t let it stop me. It’s funny when my friends have talked about their future with their partners, I have never seen a future with my husband. I don’t think it is something I could bear.
Until he leaves the house, I shall stay vigilant of his mood and behaviour.
