Thank you both eeyorenomore and confused123, I will look for that book and you are right eeyorenomore the more I find out about domestic violence/abuse and the after effects of it, the more I start to understand that I am not going mad but my feelings are natural reactions to a long period of control, and I will see if I can get some counselling sorted out confused123 and I think you are right, I need to rebuild and rediscover myself again as I had to bury the real me so deep inside of me just to get through each abusive day, I am not sure who the real me is anymore, and sometimes I feel like an empty shell. Plus chatting to people like yourselves who have been in similar situations and who understand how I am feeling really helps as I no longer feel so alone. Thanks a lot.
