Thank you both for your replies , it means alot. I messaged a old friend from before i met him and she has put me in touch with a rural hub to speak with a mental health support worker . Im just so tearful at the moment, now that i realise what he has done and is still trying to do. I need to get my head in a stronger place , i still keep thinking , is it me ? is it all in my head ?is it my fault ? when it was (detail removed by Moderator), he received (detail removed by Moderator), he was surprised to say the least , which is what gave me the chance to challenge him , he just sat there and said NO , but he then proceeded to message someone , I was so upset and shocked i had to walk the dog , a few days later he took me to (detail removed by Moderator) to walk the dog and i kept crying silent tears , he was aware but just ignored me , he never asked what was wrong , he never even tried to comfort me, Why does it still hurt me so ?Why do i still feel so upset ? Ive lost everything about me that made me ME, My sense of humour , everything , I want to find ME again
