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Like you I definitely started to reflect some of his behaviours. It’s such a scary thought to think I could behave in the same way as somebody so evil.
I am so happy that you have regained your mojo and are free of him, what a shining light you are. X

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Fortunately my GP are aware of to an extent of the abuse due to my hospital admission (detail removed by Moderator) ago (which i was extremely reluctant towards but my head hurt so bad I began to pass out). Although I am no longer seeing him physically he still contacts me via text, emails etc. Since I lost my baby I have experienced a new kind of abuse; he’s told all his friends and family that I aborted our child; reality is I suffered a miscarriage just before my (detail removed by Moderator) week scan and he wasn’t there as he didn’t wake up when I took myself to A&E at 5am… so because he wasn’t there he claims I secretly got an abortion when for the whole (detail removed by Moderator) months I was pregnant he told me at least once a week to get an abortion to which I refused. Losing a baby and then being told I’m a ‘murderer’ (his words, I support those women who’s choice it is to abort) is just a bit too much to bear.

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Thank you all for your kind words. I have just looked at this from 2 months ago as I was so afraid I would be coming back to no replies or replies telling me what i feared most; that I was the toxic one.
I hope you’re all healing and taking one day at a time.
Love to you all.

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Luckily I do not live with the abuser. I have been in contact with the police and my local domestic abuse service many times but i always drop it after a while as he is on license and he’s told me if I ever get the police involved he would kill me and if he can’t do it himself he will get somebody else to. I know this gives even more reason to report but I am genuinely terrified that he will snap and will do it as he’s spent time in jail before (for (detail removed by Moderator), not against me or any previous partner) and didn’t take it too well. I did have a police protection put on my house a couple months ago which was that if their was an emergency call from my home they would know etc, but that put me even more on edge. The anxiety is just crippling.

Thank you all for your kind words. I have just looked at this from 2 months ago as I was so afraid I would be coming back to no replies or replies telling me what i feared most; that I was the toxic one.
I hope you’re all healing and taking one day at a time.
Love to you all.

[Healingheart]

Thank you all for your kind words. I have just looked at this from 2 months ago as I was so afraid I would be coming back to no replies or replies telling me what i feared most; that I was the toxic one.
I hope you’re all healing and taking one day at a time.
Love to you all.

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