I just cried reading the responses, thank you so so much for taking the time to respond to me. I think it has helped to hear from people who have been through similar things and can empathise with my situation and your kind words and encouragement were so good to hear, i feel a lot less more alone now.
You are right he has denied it all which really upset me, part of me thought he would be sorry for what he did and admit it. But from reading on here i see that his brain isnt wired that way. I just find it so hard to believe that these men can act this way, all i ever did was care for him , its so hard to get my head around but i will keep reading on here and the things you have suggested and i am sure that in time i will get more and more insight into the situation and how he is. One good thing is that the police still have my phone so i dont have any way of texting him/knowing if he has contacted me, i am pretty sure if he tried to contact me telling me how sorry he is I would have forgiven him. xxx
