Eggshells. I left him the end of (removed by moderator) as I discovered he was having an affair and made me feel like it was all me and that I had mental health issues. So I left him as soon as I got the evidence I needed to walk away from the relationship. so its early days but most days recently I feel stronger. Its worse at night though as I get a million thoughts all at once going over everything and hating myself for how I didn’t see what was happening around me and not realising I was being abused until I walked away and started talking to my family.