Thank you everyone for your replies.
I was so nervous reading them. I wanted to throw up. I guess part of me wanted to say, you don’t know him. He’s not like your husbands/partners.
But the truth is, you seem to know him better than his friends. He does only do it behind closed doors. He does blame me for everything and twist everything. I am scared of him.
My heart is broken.
I spend my life trying to avoid eggshells. I’ve done some really crazy stuff, just to avoid getting him angry.
I feel very alone and that nobody would understand. For the first time, it seems you all understand.
I don’t know what I’m trying to say.
My head says run away. My heart says no.
