Thank you J, lots of resources for me to look at, I think I need that rather than ruminating on what has gone on and driving my friends crazy.
I think I know why I go for abusive partners, I’m not really sure it’s all to do with my parents’ relationship but it does have some bearing. It’s about being the odd one out when I was younger and never being given a fair chance then, so I am giving these poor lost souls the chance I never had. I have changed a lot since then and should choose someone who isn’t so broken they are incapable of love. At the moment the thought of a relationship terrifies me, I just cannot see ever doing that again.
The freedom programme looks great, just what I need, thank you.