Lemonade99

[Lemonade99]

Hi all! After all your comments&I had a really good think about everything’s&it made me look at everything differently. I didn’t want to end it randomly but it happened that he is speaking to a girl he knows I don’t want in my life due to him cheating with her previously so I had reason if that makes sense. He told me that it is nothing between her but was very defensive when I asked why she’s back if it is nothing, so I made the decision to not be treated like crap anymore – I have ended the relationship… he is currently sleeping on the sofa until his mom is back home then going back to her house.
I am heartbroken it has come to this because I still love him, it’s awkward been around him as I have no idea how to act/what to say. We both cried but I’ve said I’m putting my foot down with everything & not going back on my decision.
I want to thank everyone who has said something on this post, it honestly helped me stand up for myself&think about MYSELF for a change. I finally feel like I’m been an actual parent doing what’s best for her.

[Lemonade99]

Hello thank you! We’re still not together & honestly for the better. However it didn’t take long for him to go on the drink & hive had his family on the phone worried about him, his also got online banking (whole relationship never bothered to download it) and take money from our joint bills account to his so he can buy the alcohol so far I’m down (detail removed by Moderator). I see everything so clearly now and I’m thankful I’ve gotten out when I did. Every little thing he does I see the manipulation, the lies everything! & I’m so angry at myself for seeing past it & putting my baby in harms for my own sake😞

[Lemonade99]

It’s mainly when he is drunk & on drugs that he is more violent & aggressive. There has been few times when sober but more when influence. His dad died when he was (detail removed by Moderator) that’s the only major thing to happen in his life to date. By what I’ve heard his dad wasn’t a nice man and Dv with his mom so when his drunk he’ll say he might aswell be what everyone thinks my dad was etc etc.
I know there’s so many people who do it & it can be done been a single mom but it’s so daunting even thinking about it all at the moment.

[Lemonade99]

I’m only (detail removed by Moderator) and I’ve never been in this type of situation. I think it’s because I do love him & think so much of him that I partly don’t want it to actually be true that all this stuff could happen to me. And now there’s a baby involved, I’m too scared to tell midwifes in fear of what will be said as I don’t have the most supportive one. I think aswell it’s case of he has told me he can’t go on without me etc & I know his serious about doing something to himself, when I left the house before I had to get his mom to stay with him as he took some of my tablets & drank half bottle of alcohol before passing out… I just wanted to be a family and be able to give my daughter everything but I feel like I’m failing her already.
I used to be so confident outgoing social life at the moment I have (detail removed by Moderator) people on snap chat (detail removed by Moderator) on Facebook I speak to (detail removed by Moderator) friends and my dad that’s all. I haven’t been out since last (detail removed by Moderator). I had a back bone & wouldn’t of been afraid now I feel so broken I’ve got nothing left.

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