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I have been thinking about going to the GP or the leaders of a CBT course I did said to get in touch with them if I need further help, as they can help me get specific help without more mental health assessments.

They are great suggestions, thank you. All things I do a bit of but wish I did more of so I think I need to make more of an effort to make time for those, I really do struggle making time for myself!

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Hi Good Samaritan,

I was talking to my sister about this recently and she asked what I was scared of happening, if I had seen him again when he was alive, and I just didn’t know the answer. He would never do something in public and nothing he ever did was obvious, I guess I was just scared of the idea of him.

I’m hoping I can get past this too, it’s easy to tell ourselves we’re the one with the issues as it’s what abusive people have tried to tell us so we think what they are doing is normal. I think I’m gradually seeing the truth when I look back on things. It doesn’t seem like it at the time but the more I realise that my gut feelings about a situation were right (even if I did ignore them at the time) the stronger and more positive I feel about myself and, in a way, it takes power away from my abuser knowing he was lying and wrong.

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Hi SunshineRainflower,

I do know he’s dead, I just find it hard to trust social media. A few old friends have been in touch and I’ve seen pictures of his funeral and his page has become an ‘in memory of’ page. The thing that makes me feel a bit crazy is that I’m still scared he’s alive even with evidence he isn’t.

I looked up Complex PTSD and it sounds like something I could have. I actually heard back about that counselling this week, which I’m so relieved about, and I’m booked in for an assessment soon so I’ll mention it to them.

I’m so sorry to hear how uncomfortable your ex made you feel in your own home, I hope it feels like your own space again. I think I will look up ways to ward of bad spirits too even though I’m fairly sure it’s in my head there is no harm in taking extra precautions and incense and oil burners are always nice :).

Thank you.

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