Lightonthehorizon

[Lightonthehorizon]

By the way, you’re both incredibly strong. I really admire you both. Please send some of that strength + wisdom my way! X

[Lightonthehorizon]

Thank you both. You don’t know how much it means to read what you’ve written. I need you both to be my neighbours! I’ve driven a few hours today to be with my sister. I hope a weekend here will help me to rebalance a little. Thank you again. Xxx

[Lightonthehorizon]

You are all wonderful. Thank you so much for taking the time to post replies ❤️. My husband bled our joint bank account dry, after I left, right up to our (detail removed by Moderator), so I have very little to live off let alone treat myself with. I only have the money I earn as a (detail removed by Moderator) where I only work (detail removed by Moderator) per week (my husband doesn’t even like me working that many days). I still have the family dog with me so I’m doing lots of walking (which is free!) to give me something to do + people to bump into as they dog-walk too. Although I had a pretty good career before we got married, my jobs since have been low-key, low paid + have accommodated bringing up my boys (especially as my family all live (detail removed by Moderator) miles away). I don’t regret, for one second, being a mum over being a career girl, but I’m now in a position where I’ll have to leave my current job, working with (detail removed by Moderator), and find something full time that will pay enough for me to support myself + my boys (when I actually see them – another story 😞). I was offered refuge as I was considered to be at significant risk + homeless when I left, but my elderly mum stepped in to fund a private rental of a flat. I’m so lucky I am where I am, but feel so guilty/upset about the money I’m borrowing from her, so lonely when I’m in the flat + so scared about stepping into a new job when maybe I’m not ready. I’m going back to the (detail removed by Moderator) after (detail removed by Moderator) of sick leave. This is a big step in itself but I’m looking forward to being with the (detail removed by Moderator) + the staff who I’ve been with for (detail removed by Moderator). I have such mixed feelings. Am I ready? Will I be able to cope? Will I have breakdown moments? And this is just my current job! I’ve made contact with a counsellor for telephone/ad hoc counselling, so that’s there if I need it. I’m waiting to be offered a place on a (detail removed by Moderator) course by my local refuge. I hope that will help but it’s a real shame I haven’t been able to see others, in a similar situation to me, sooner. Have any of you found any particularly groups, hobbies, societies useful? I need to build up my confidence + am shying away from taking steps to join anything. Still feeling vulnerable.

[Author]

Posts