Lonelyloner

[Lonelyloner]

How did speaking with the support worker go? I’m very nervous about the call and what to expect.

Well done on reaching out too.

I almost feel like because its not physical I’m overreacting and won’t be believed or taking up the resources of someone who needs them more.

Take care of yourself too, thanks for taking the time

[Lonelyloner]

Thank you.

I think maybe I’d feel better about it if there had been a big event that I could pinpoint made me do it but there wasn’t, infact things have seemed better than normal lately I guess that plays into my doubts and if I’m doing thw right thing.

I have also fled before but I always seemed to convince myself that he had changed and ended up back with him, I also managed to get away again another time but I wasnt really free of him I was still in the same cycle only he got to come and go as he pleased.

Sometimes I feel like it would be so much easier to accept this as my fate and I forever be trying to get free of him.

Its self inflicted, I knew better I just managed to get my life back on track, had a job was starting to make friends and starting to see things in vivid colour again and then the pandemic happened and some other things and he caught me at a low ebb and now here I am again stuck in the drab greyness feeling no further along then I was nearly (detail removed by moderator).

I’m so pleased to hear you managed to break free and really appreciate you taking the time to reach out

[Lonelyloner]

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond.

I guess its natural for the big steps to be so daunting, thank you for your praise but its really not deserved, I’m sure you’re just as brave.

I’m am sorry that so many of us are going through this but its such a relief to know that its not just me, of course rationally I’ve always known that but I’ve never really allowed myself to talk about it with anyone which I suppose is tied into the denial and shame.

Thank you again. Means more than you know

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