Hi all, thanks so much for taking the time to respond. Nice to know there is advice & support out there. Think I’ll get it on paper just to get thoughts out of my head or I’ll drive myself mad. I’m sure it would fuel him to defend himself if sent, we both know truth even if others don’t. Social services have been informed whether I like it or not through my docs from what I’ve told them so we’ll see where that leads. Also waiting for a referral for counselling which I think will be a great help. Currently have handful of friends & family that I’ve told what’s happening, many others hearing stuff through grapevine & calling for gossip so trying to keep my circle small & keep others away. See biggest shock to everyone is that we only got married in May so it lasted 4 months so it’s got everyone talking. The shame of calling off a wedding & now it lasting such a short time is what I was concerned about but finally had to stop caring what others thought & put self & children first. This forum has been amazing & I’ll continue to seek strength from words of amazing & strong women on here. Xx