Mermaidtail

[Mermaidtail]

You’ve just explained my ex to a T!!

I always felt (still feel) like I’m not allowed to be angry or upset with him. I’m not allowed to raise a concern or call him out on anything because it turns into an explosive argument, that he turns completely on me, he always tells me I’m the same as him, that I have mood swings, call him names etc.

[Mermaidtail]

Thank you so much.

I’ve been so drained since the weekend. His mum has kicked him out because after I told him I don’t want to be with him anymore he went psychotic, he went on a drug binge and is harassing me. I blocked him on everything which I don’t like doing as it means he can’t speak to our daughter. He gets so paranoid, he thinks the only reason I don’t want to be with him is because I’ve found someone else. I’ve tried explaining to him why but it’s like talking to a brick wall. He doesn’t listen and talks over me, hears it completely different to how I’ve said it. He’s making me feel like it’s my fault for him going off on a binge, I know his mum will partly blame me.

[Mermaidtail]

I feel trapped. If I stay with him I’m unhappy, if I try and leave it’s even worse. I asked for space this week and he wouldn’t give it to me, I’m bombarded with horrible messages about how he wants to die and his life is over, that I couldn’t care less, I’m heartless and I’ve been stringing him along. He keeps on about all the nice things he’s done for me (to make up for the abusive behaviour) it’s like I just have to accept it and not complain. He doesn’t care if we argue in front of our daughter, he’s just impossible to be around and leaves me feeling really emotionally drained.

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