Onapathtohealing21

[Onapathtohealing21]

That’s annoying I just wrote a big reply and it dissapeared before I could send it.

Thank you for replying to me.

I am more aware of it now you have mentioned it. I know that when he says he still loves me and wants me that he’s just trying to confused me which worked. It also hurt me and I know he probably did that on person to get my attention.

He has text me and called me since being with her and told me he still wants me and that she’s second best. I do pity her too and did try warning her about the game he played with us both bbefore but it didn’t come to fruition. It’s disgusting the things he’s said to me since being back with her and I asked him if that’s how he spoke to her when he was with me!

I am lucky that I don’t have any kids with him as I can only imagine how much harder that would be. I had one tie to him but managed to sort that out so now I am free. I still find it hard not sleai with him as I want the person I fell on love with to respond to me but I have to remind myself that person wasn’t real.

I will keep trying to hold on to better things and hopefully make my no contact last longer than before.

I am feeling much better thank you and thanks for listening to me x

[Onapathtohealing21]

Hi Auriel,

Thanks for messaging.

I know you are right. I know that he will treat her like crap, he did before nothing will change this time around. I know that whoever he gets with in future behind her back more than likely will also eventually see him for who he really is as his mask doesn’t last long from my own experience.

I think there is always self doubt in my mind thinking maybe he could change, maybe I wasn’t the right person to change for and someone will be better. But I know I tried so very hard to explain logic and reasoning to him, to show him that’s not how you love someone and I know that I shouldn’t have had to teach him any of those things to begin with. Especially lessons in respect which he had none of. Well intermittent. When I was or wasn’t giving him what he wanted.

I will move on from this completely eventually. Now I just need to work on myself. Thanks for you r kind words x

[Onapathtohealing21]

Hi Astra,

Thanks for messaging me.

I wasn’t as bad as the time before thankfully.

I have blocked him again now, I still feel myself checking sometimes to see if he’s still around and messaging me. I know I shouldn’t but I think I just do it out of habit.

Welcome to the group 😊 x

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