Hi,
I’m new too…. For the first time this week I reached out and used the text help line.
My story is not dis similar from all our stories. Initially its all good… Then can the verbal abuse, the jealousy and accusations of me cheating on him… Then the emotional and Coercive control…. And finally the physical abuse.
This is all in a time frame of (detail removed by moderator). All the red flags were there from day 1 but I thought that is his past and people change etc etc…
It’s got worse and worse, I walk on egg shells (although he can be wonderful at times) wondering what I’ll “do wrong” next….. I feel lost. I am no longer me…. I’m scared alot of the time…. But in the other hand I feel guilty for saying all this cause he can be kind hearted and nice to be around and its at those points I think that maybe I’ve got it all wrong…. I’ve over exaggerated it all, I’m too sensitive etc
Life is hard for me…. In my head…. I am lucky in so many ways as I own my home… I have wonderful pets and a couple of friends ( who I don’t confide in)…. My best friend died of cancer in (detail removed by moderator)….
That’s me…. And to add insult to injury I’m a (detail removed by moderator)…. How pathetic does that make me..
Thank you for listening x
