Princesshuggybear

[Princesshuggybear]

Hi not sure where to go for help in my area.
This last week as been a really difficult week. I am struggling a lot at the moment I don’t even want to put Christmas decorations. My ex is making things difficult over a settlement and still messing with my head, the slightest thing and I have been in tears. With the help of family I have been able to start a small business because I am not able to work as a (detail removed by Moderator) due to having a breakdown. I am worried that my ex will turn up at the business just to mess with me some more. (Detail removed by Moderator)
Because he won’t (detail removed by Moderator) and I’m scared that I’ll have to see him. And this scares me just writing this and I’m crying again. How can one person have such a effect on someone’s life and not a good one either.

[Princesshuggybear]

Hi am I’m new to the forum [detail removed by moderator] months ago a left my partner after a long time together. It was only after leaving that he had been using emotional and mental abuse against me for years. Unfortunately just after leaving I had a complete emotional,mental and physical breakdown. To the point I couldn’t deal with the day to day things. If I went out I had panic attacks. He’d kept me away from my family and friends, always telling me I was useless, failure no good at anything, I was fat,ugly. Even though he works aboard he still affected me. He made do things I didn’t want to do. A few years ago when he was home I woke up to find that he’d hit me while I was a sleep knocking out 2 crowns and snapping one which as now left me with no front teeth. When I look in the mirror all I see is someone who is fat and ugly. And it doesn’t matter how many people tell me I’m not that’s how I feel. We are divorced now but are still sorting the financial side of things out. And each time I think I’m picking myself up a letter from his solicitor can knock me back again.
Unfortunately as a child I suffered from sexual abuse the person responsible as been bought to justice. But I have the memories of this on top of everything else that someways I wonder what’s the point in carrying on. But that would mean he’s won, so even though it’s a struggle I carry on. Trying to rebuild my life, I’ve moved back Close to my family. Who are helping and supporting were they can. This week as been a struggle,especially the end of last week when he sent a letter,it’s knocked me back so much. Just don’t know what to do anymore …..

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