It’s good to get your response and no you’re not alone. I will advise you to clear your mind, open a new mind, let go of the drinking, give your life a new chapter and meaning, strat making new plans on how to get out of that horrible treatment .. heal yourself first then start working on your freedom away from him. It might be hard but only you can save you, life is very short and the rest of it is worth living in happiness . There are real men out there who would show you how awesome and fun life is . Don’t spend it with someone who’s definition of life means hell. Sweetheart I am here for you !!!