Thank you so much for your kind replies. I never considered being friends first and it makes sense to me. I do love the idea of old fashioned dating which I think has gotten lost a bit with online dating. I have been putting myself under a lot of pressure in relation to dating. I read an amazing book called the mastery of love and I have been learning to love myself. It’s a beautiful book and I really recommend it! My friends tell me there is no way that I will ever attract the same type of man again but my anxiety is high. I hate that he has done this to me. Thank you again for your help. This forum saved my life. I never thought I would need it again under totally different circumstances but I am glad it’s here for me xxx