Thank you so much for your responses. I think you’re both right-it’s the shock after such a long time and the sheer panic that he will always have a hold over me in some sense. The first couple of years after I planned my escape were literally looking over my shoulder and then as I built a new life gradually feeling less worried. I think it’s the personal details (and unfinished thoughts that he talked about in his message that have upset me-it wasn’t just a hey how are you (although that would also be awful). Instead it showed me that he still feels anger towards me. Domestic abuse is truly a terrible thing because it can influence you after years of silence. Thank you again for your replies-I will find some strength to deal with this.
