Hi @stargazing1, I’m so sorry you’re going through this but it’s always good to know you’re not alone in this. I can really relate to your frustration and needing to let things out and vent to someone.
They make us feel like we’re going insane, like we are the problem when we aren’t at all. My abuser mentally abuses me, he is very loving but has another side to him that is nasty and evil, yet he says I’m the horrible one. I have been accused of things I haven’t done and had verbal abuse thrown my way. I’ve been accused of teasing men by taking a sip of water and a man just happens to drive past. He sees this as teasing and has called me an idiot for this.
unfortunately they never change which is hard to comprehend. My mental health is really suffering because of this and I’m starting to see this more clearer so I’m taking the steps to get help and have started the gym.
Always remember you’re not alone and it’s always good to let things out to vent or speak with someone when you’re feeling low.
Take care sending my love from Sunsetluv x