Sunsetluv

[Sunsetluv]

Continued… anyone that goes by I don’t look at. I’m honestly so fed up being me.

I feel like I’m the problem, he also said to me other people must be doing something right to get married. I feel like I can’t do anything right to feel wanted and enough for someone.

He also calls me names and Denys them, he’s called me (insult removed by Moderator) and doesn’t realise how much of an effect that has on me and how it makes me feel about my body. Before of surgery at a young age of (age removed by Moderator) now (age removed by Moderator). My body has been affected, yet he can’t see how that makes me feel. I feel awful about my body, that I’m not good enough.

i worry no one will believe me because he’s so good at manipulating things.

i neglect myself. I just feel like I’m miserable and not fun to be around anymore that I do think sometimes life would be better without me around. Id be at peace finally, and not struggling everyday with my mental health.

I’m tired of being me.

[Sunsetluv]

@Bananaboat, they really do he’s just tried to do it again!. (detail removed by Moderator)

He is crazy! Definitely needs some form of help! I feel like screaming out!

love Sunsetluv x

[Sunsetluv]

Hi @stargazing1, I’m so sorry you’re going through this but it’s always good to know you’re not alone in this. I can really relate to your frustration and needing to let things out and vent to someone.

They make us feel like we’re going insane, like we are the problem when we aren’t at all. My abuser mentally abuses me, he is very loving but has another side to him that is nasty and evil, yet he says I’m the horrible one. I have been accused of things I haven’t done and had verbal abuse thrown my way. I’ve been accused of teasing men by taking a sip of water and a man just happens to drive past. He sees this as teasing and has called me an idiot for this.

unfortunately they never change which is hard to comprehend. My mental health is really suffering because of this and I’m starting to see this more clearer so I’m taking the steps to get help and have started the gym.

Always remember you’re not alone and it’s always good to let things out to vent or speak with someone when you’re feeling low.

Take care sending my love from Sunsetluv x

 

[Sunsetluv]

Thank you so much for messaging. It’s comforting in a way to know you’re not alone. It’s also mind blowing to think there are other men that actually do this.

I get no help with the housework, he doesn’t see my job as me working as I work in an office. So he thinks I can cook, clean, tidy and do everything after working all week.

I wish he could feel how he makes me feel for one day then he would realise his actions and words are wrong.

I always wonder what happened in his house hold as a child for him to act this way.

love Sunsetluv x

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