Could it be you have lost your self esteem and motivation to seek help .
Have you got so lonely and desperate that you just try cope .
If you can’t do it for you then do it for your son ,As he got know choose who you go out with .You have a choose why you want stay around someone that dont give a dam gets drunk and expects you to slave after him he a user and if your want to be love your not getting it from this Guy
Be strong and go nearest women’s centre ,ask for there help get all your stuff and move out.
I read your statement again, Why do i plan to leave him at night – because that when your at your strongest cause your instinct to survive kick in ,the next day your mind can trick you into believing that it was all a bad nightmare and did not happen .But it has happened and if you carry on pretending it has not you will have more bad nightmare so please whoever you are.Leave and get your freedom back you don’t need this Guy .
He however might need you more than you need him but is this what you want leave before he destroys your identity.
