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Hi Starryeyed,

When I saw my councillor it was just an initial assessment, I’m going back to see him in a couple of weeks and he said part of each session he will ask my husband to leave and speak to me alone, like he did in the first 1, that’s when I opened up and told him what was going on, after a little gentle push because at first I said everything was fine.

I too feel like I’m overreacting because I don’t think my husband does it on purpose and he does have a lot to deal with from me with my mental health. I felt a bit like a fraud when I first posted but at the same time I felt a sense of relief that my councillor had picked up on it, I went to see a lady at my doctors, who specialises in mental health back in October I think and told her about my concerns and what was happening with my husband but I wasn’t listened to by her so I just thought maybe it was just me, maybe I was just overreacting and reading things into it.
I was in an abusive relationship in my teens and I just can’t believe that I’ve let it happen again, only this time it’s not physical and while I was strong enough to end it back then I’m nowhere near strong enough to end it now. It’s the thought of having to start all over again that scares and worries me too.

Xx

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Hi ladies,
I feel so overwhelmed with all your messages, I just want to say thank you so much, it means a lot.
Sorry I haven’t been able to reply sooner only we’ve all had a horrible virus in the house, which we’re still getting over and he’s always in. I’m sat down stairs replying now cuz there’s a whole fleet of freight trains gathered in the bedroom right now (husband!).

I haven’t rang the helpline yet as I don’t feel strong enough to take that step yet, I suppose it will make it all to real then.
My head is just absolutely spinning with it all at the moment, I can’t seem to get past the belief that someone professional picked up on it after speaking to me and my husband for about half an hour, I don’t suppose it helped my husbands corner when he introduced himself as my carer!

Thank you all again for your kind words and support, I’ll try and reply sooner
Xx

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