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18th March 2024 at 6:11 pm #167040ToffeeappleParticipant
Hi Chocolatebunnie,
I regret staying so long. Like yourself CB, I’ve stayed decades. I worry about upsetting my autistic grandson as his parents are separated. The abuse has settled but it won’t be for long. I’m trauma bonded too. I’d like to try leaving even if it doesn’t work out. Also I can see the abuse getting worse as I’m approaching old age now. Abuse in old age isn’t easy to escape from. I feel like I’m in a comfort zone that isn’t a nice comfort zone. I feel this way because I’ve been here for a long time. Do you feel that way CB? I find music and my dog helps with my poor mental health. Maybe it would be easier if I had friends but I’m an introvert. I haven’t got into therapy yet but hoping to visit a counsellor now the weather’s warmer. Sorry I haven’t any advice to give. I have stopped standing up to my husband, it makes him worse and then my nerves get bad because I don’t know how bad the abuse is going to be. I was heading for a breakdown last summer. I’ve set some boundaries which have worked but have a feeling they won’t last. Sorry, it’s rambly. Take care. X -
28th February 2024 at 9:08 pm #166429ToffeeappleParticipant
Hi fire red fox
I can relate to some of this. I don’t think you’re being stupid at all. Throughout my marriage of many decades, my husband regularly went away drinking with friends. I used to feel upset.But some of the reason I was upset was because I was emotionally neglected as a child. I was naive about my husband’s personality. He went on a jolly when our kids were young, I struggled looking after them. I was up all night with my son who was vomiting. I don’t drive and have no friends. He never asked me how I felt about him disappearing. I went to a family event one day. When I got back, he said he had missed me. He is aware of my mental health issues and has told me I’m crazy. We hadn’t been married long when he first went away. I didn’t realise that it was a sign of things to come.It was a pattern that repeated itself. My husband made a commitment but didn’t keep it. Sadly my husband also abuses me. Anyway I hope life gets brighter for you. Take care x. -
1st February 2024 at 8:45 pm #165782ToffeeappleParticipant
Hi Chocolatebunnie
I told my husband I was going to write a book. His response was (removed by moderator). He threw cold water over it and was negative. I am not able to work outside the home due to (removed by moderator) illness. It’s just another part of the abuse being thrown at us. I have written a couple of chapters though. Take care. X
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12th December 2023 at 12:54 pm #164016ToffeeappleParticipant
Hi Darknessallaround
Change isn’t easy when you’re older. I keep hoping my husband will change so we can stay together. Its normal and healthy to feel cautious about the unknown. Sometimes I think,’Why should I feel guilty for something I haven’t done wrong?’ Other times, I feel that I am at fault. There’s got to be more to a relationship and life than arguments and abuse. I’m thinking of having psychotherapy as I had an abusive childhood as well as an abusive husband. Thanks for replying to my post in September. Take care. -
10th February 2024 at 1:32 pm #166001ToffeeappleParticipant
Hi Hereforhelp,
Yes, I do have support from my daughter and son. Thank you for replying and also the insight into the situation. Take care. X
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